'-'IDA'-'

perangai oink ooink!

2010-07-12T20:31:00.000-07:00

its been so long seen i last post i know...

ouh well,

im here now cos im sooo bingit wif everythng in life..

semue mcm babi!

perangai oink oink!

chibai uh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

good ting my blog private and i dun alwaes update(in other words, readers will be very malas to read uh)

so ill feel like im tokin to myself,

which is bagus too u knw y, cos i jus say wad i wan

despite tinkin of hu ill hurt(of cos i wunt)

ok i dun even knw wad im tokin about

perangai baaaaaaaaaaabbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb!!!!!!!!!!!

saye geram uh

i dun even knw wad im angry abt knw!

tis sucks!

alot!

big time~

omg!!!!!

die!

i cnt take it lor!

abe sekarang si pompan ni nk msn pe ngan dekni, knape siol,

rase besalah kn babi

hahah!

i jus called u babi pe?

omg!

bitch!

hah! okok!

its the largest, da eh da eh,

saye pulak perangai sekarng,

im nt angry lor,,,its like, bingit uh

tak suke tau orng msn2 ni...cakap pasal each other...

argh!

I hate apr fool!

2010-04-01T05:50:00.001-07:00

Like omg!! Wat a fucked up day!
4 times in one day, n not to say the last one was teerrrriiibbblllleee!
To me la

Shheesshhh!
But nvm i'm stil me!
I love itouch like damn fucking alot tau! Haha got twitter n blogspot jugak!

Nw I'm blogging tru itouch siak!
Coolio! Haha
Ouh well now I felt so much btter
Who cares abt tt stupidass
Haha move on now!

FYI, I ate alot tonite fuck shit bodo! Pfft!

i mean LIKE OMG!!

2010-02-26T06:12:00.000-08:00

HELLO HELLOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

ive had sssssssssoooooooooooo much fun ppl..

hanging out wif the girlssssss

tanx hils,nis,ais n many more

had funnnnnnnn!!

aniwaes ppl,.. :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

i tink eeeeerrrrrrrmmmmmmmmmm

i tink im bored now..

i mean like seriouslyyyy,like OMMMMMGGGGGGG!!

blonde,bimbo watever..hahah

i love tokin to the girls like some blonde(macam kiut uh/nk act blonde je but im not)

i love the slang.hahah ok watever

bored bored bored! pfft!

lagi orng tu tak reply all my msgs..(so much of his love language)

pfft!

*showing my middle finger

shud i strt amore nw?

ok wait

mondae - gt plans not?or there is but i frgt??

tues - go sch reformat lappy

wed - nth

thurs - go skul make up sessions(afternn uh)

fri - nth

wah! i busy girl uh??!

i knw rite?!!

*im bored n gng insane bit by bit uh

i nid plans..i mean if gt no plans,mite as well strt amore rite?pfft!!

double pfft!triple!!...etc

ok bye

lots of love,

SHAI

moving on!!

2010-02-23T06:41:00.000-08:00

'I miss that someone so much that i keep expecting to bump into her.. It never does happen.. Whenever i pass by her bus stop, even a glimpse of her would satisfy me.. i wanted to talk abt it, but i dont think turning back is a good idea.. im so stupid abt this that i dont even know how she would feel.. Am i really out of her league?' - by ab

he moved on..n so shud i (is tt the correct eng)

pfft!hu cares! my blog aniwae..n dun tink theres readers

haha

the things is i wana move on...cos i knw he's stupid n he dun deserve me..

n it hurts to knw he love someone else..

but i kip lookin at his fb.. to knw how he's doin n stuff.. but it hurts to read those shits (like the one above)

i tink i shudnt mit him..since i wana move on rite??

i mean..tis is stupid..we din even cntct..

eh eh people..tis blog no longer private rite..

thus i shall not say much of my private life..hahahahha..its ok la...

i nid more excitement...

i rmbr i did told myself tt watever i wana do in life,mite as well i do it now, b4 all the excitement go away..

but now.. i felt like the feelings gone..

n i no longer knw my purpose of me doin things..idk wat i wan... idk wat i feel like doin..

everything becomes I DUNO!

sheeeshh..merepek siak!

bodo nye babi!

ok i nid to relax n free my mind..

i wana go ECP..very soon..

new post soon!!(it shall be veri veri soon)

my name aint there.. :(

2010-02-23T06:25:00.000-08:00

hey hey..

i miss my lappy... its been almost half-a-week i din use my syg..

sad rite??!!

hais

aniwaes..im nt feeling any HAPPY rite now..

nvm..soon tis blog will no longer be private..i shall tell myself(if i dun like anitin/there's something tt makes me unhappy, ill keep it to myself)

due to certain reasons tt i cn no longer post it on tis blog

i miss tis ppl:

-jannah

-dul

-nisa(badly,i f**king nid to talk to her! cnt wait for hols!(consulttn time)hhah)

and others...

i nid to do SOMETHING WIF MY HAIR!!

i mean reli! come on..jus look at it..shessh

people people!!!

SNOWY pregnant again...cepat nak mampos! (she make love wif her lover fast u knw!! not more than 10 mins! fast game pe??)

we all macm terperanjat uh.. cos everytime she go out,she came bck hme super fast..(of cos it din cross our minds tt she make love like freaking fast)

but her perut like nak xplode ya knw..

oooo BIGGGG!!

i tink more than 5??

idk..yay!cnt wait!!

n i LOVE CRYSTAL!

eventho she bite me alot....like on my hand,my ketiak,my feet my leg, my butt, knock my head summore etc...so kurang ajar,i knw..but its ok..

i still love her.hahaha

now,this lappy, is freakingly pissing me out man...entah la..ade virus kape..sheeshh..pantat uh!!

pfft!!

toot!

i nid to go out soon ppl...plans plans!!

lots of love,

SHAI

continuing..

2010-02-09T09:52:00.001-08:00

ab stop chtting after he said..nvm haha

then i try askin qns..no answer..i said gdnit..no answer...

come on!!!!

hwo on earth im gna do all those swit stuff for him..wen he cnt be bothered to even answer me..

simply..chatting..

sheesshh..

saye angry uh..pfft!

u knw wat he wrote..in his fb

'Life is boring, plus all the unpleasant things. it makes life worse..'

am i one of the unpleasant things in his life???

am i??

if i am..i wunt disturb him..i jus wan him bck in my life man...

idk uh!!

sooo shitty man!!

sheesshhh!!

i hate all tis..

2 more manzzz!!

2010-02-09T08:46:00.000-08:00

yay!

2 more paperss.....maths n marketing

sheessh

i wan hols now!

i wan work

i wan money!

yay!

currently chatting wif ab..

replying SUPER SLOW~

hhahahaha

but nemind

at least something rite??

come on shai..dun ask for too much..come on...

aniwae aniwae....

todae...gt TOOTS

hu i duno kip calling out my name

scry riteeeE????!!

omg!

hais

kat cnteen, they were like staring but then i ignore uh..cos mayb they look kat orng lain ke..

btol tk..? like i told myself..takmo prasan uh girl...

then bile nk balik..terserempak lagik..

hw unfortunate..

they one of them..kip shouting my name uh..

but i din turn around..mcm..'why should i turn wen i duno them?'

correct?

sheesh

nw i cnt stop tinkin of those TOOTS

i wnder hu they r..

i mean hw come they knw me, i duno them

crazy uh all tis ppl

pfft..

wat time shud i slp aniwae?

hahha

i miss ab cn?/

hahha

im chttng wif him..

its a gd sign

(Y)

hahah!!

maybe i shall continue tmr..n tell u guys wat happen n wat u talk abt..aites?

hehe :)

we're tokin bout LOVE rite nw!

2010-02-06T05:43:00.000-08:00

hollllaaaa peepss!!!

aniwaes, im glad FA UT's over!

im scred sia! i knw rite? like freakin susah

i hentam oni!

hahahahahaa

step paham uh!

hahahha...aniwaes..i msg ab ystd...

hahah!! so fun!

i strt at 9plus am..

then we cntinuously msgng all the way till ptng

than malam he msg..!!

so cool kn!!

III KNW!!!!!!!!!!

i miss him siol!

hais

nnnn we gna mit soon!!!

wat shud i do for him eh?/

im scred!

do u tink i'll have a chance?

ab,pls give me a chance!

pls!

oh man!

i nid advice!

pfft!!

seee im doin tis again..

hais

lets jus see hw.

i gt the feeling he will layan

but he wunt cme bck into my life jus like before

-to be continued

AAABBBBB!!!

2010-02-02T16:46:00.000-08:00

omg!!

last nite ab online!!!

then tis morning i looked at his fb!!!

cuteeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg!!

i fucking miss him la!!

haiyoh!!!!

cn i like try chatting wif him the next time i saw him online??

cn i cn i??

i knw he dun cre bout me animore but then i still love him n care for him.n praying he will cme bck 1 dae!

hais

i saw his vid in fb! he was playing floorball!!!

omg cuteeee!!!

AABBB! I MISS U!!!!!!!!!!!!

n i still love u la bodo!

hais

miss u miss u miss u miss u miss u miss u!!!

hahahahah

MUACKZZZ(x1289648614689365034697153478548739547538459175498......................................)

weirdd!!

2010-01-28T06:29:00.000-08:00

hey hey

tmr tradeshw!!

omg sumhow i cnt wait!

sumhw its telling me

its gna be fun!!

i wan take pics!!

hopefuli my team's booth r like soo nice n attractive!!

hahaha

i cnt wait!!

sumtin's weird is happenin peeps!!

omg!

im straight ok!!

omg!

tolong saye YA ALLAH!

to be continued!

loads of loveeee!

2010-01-26T16:36:00.001-08:00

ALL I NEED IS THE AIR I BREATHE AND A PLACE TO REST MY HEAD!

2010-01-26T06:43:00.000-08:00

tanx hilda!! u so swit uh!

ily!

save me, i jus wana run away

2010-01-26T06:32:00.000-08:00

"i wouldnt have it any other way then to have you by my side.. love cinte, to chomel :)"

tats wat he wrote in his FB

dear GOD, make me a stronger girl pls..

i was nearly getting over him..

n now??

y cnt i jus let go??

tis killsss manzz

i felt ive been cut so deep...

my perut sakit siak!!!

2010-01-25T16:40:00.000-08:00

morforningfing!!!

people,saye sakit perut uh!!

hais!!

pagi2 da sakit perut!!

ooo, todae maths uh... ten-sided die..

can u imagine hw it looks like...??

haha,,ok later i google then see hw it looks like..

ok now i feel better..

nw tk sakit perut..later sakit lagi..then tak..then sakit..

mcm tk betol perut ni nyari

hahah

eh nisa ice hils!

i miss u la wei!!

i cnt wait for hols...

todae i gt no mood and i wan partial cn??

ee so bad hor!

hais

i miss Ab..

morning ab!

im veri sure he tinks im crazy..wat u tink people..

but tis is the oni way for me to express wat im feeling..

u noe, tis blog help me to express my thoughts n feelings

wen im angry, i blog bout ppl hu make me angry

then if im sad, i blog "

then im heartbroken, i blog "

n now, erm i tink u guys noe wer i am nw in my life, wat im dng to my life, wat im feeling n so on

so yeah...

most prob, i dun even hav a follower, but its ok, im nt expecting any..hahah!!

but i do pray tt Ab will read tis..so he do noe hw i feel(eventhough its been so freaking long since we stop tokin to each other)

but its ok..

ure forgiven,Ab.. :)

n i hope u forgive me for watever i did tt din please u

if oni im the girl tt meant so much to u.. IF ONLY

but its ok..people move on and on...

even in life(generally)

people move forward but never look back...

im a girl hu treasure others, people tt she loves, i wana bring huever i treasure to wer ever i wana go.. i wana make tis world perfect for them.. im super duper stubborn and never wana let go of everythng i hold..

and we're all humans...humans are not perfect..

and i knw i cnt please everyone, i cnt give everythng a person wans..

and im sori for tt...

i love u guys all...tankiew so much for everythng u guys have done for me..

maybe u havent been a gd daughter,sister,fren,'lover' or so on..

but i wan u guys to know i love each n everyone of u..

i felt wats its like to lose sumone so close..

i felt wat its like wen everythng will never ever be the sme again..

i cn even predict hw my future gna be like(for tis particular situation)..cos it never will be the same...

but its ok,, im strong..i cn make it tru..

im hoping tt i will alwaes hav people hu will endlessly support me in everythng i do..

i tink i sidetrek alot uh..

hahaha

nemind people..tats me..strt wif A can suddenly go S..hhahah!

if u understnd..nvm..

i wan world peace!!

yyyyyeeeesssssssssssssssssaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!

to be continued!!

i love u guys many2!!

muackzzzzzzzzzz!!!

mondae week 14 :)

2010-01-24T18:51:00.000-08:00

omg, todae my head went blank manzzzz

tt faci came to my table, n all the other team members of mine kip shooting her wif points

and guess wat..

i said notin

yay!

congrads me..another C coming my way!

shheessshhh

wth is tis people was wrng wif me...

i tink 1 possible reason is me like tis was due to me reading Ab's wall..all the post he post uh..haha wtf?

i mean..i saw huever tt girl is (the girl hu ab's married to(in fb oni)) reply to his post, called him cinte..omg!

my heart pain noe chibai!

come on which girl wunt feel the pain wen her lover, the person she loves being called baby or cinte by another girl...

come onnnn!!

ice n nis hils..i nid u guys now!

people, i tot im a stronger girl now..but look..

wats happening to me.. i love the girl hu i am rite before i read AB's wall...omg...

AB,

im gna admit tis..

i still have feelings for u...

i havent move on..

nnnn

i wana move on onli if i noe u will never come bck now n in the future

but if i noe u will come bck one dae, then i'll wait

eh ape ni??

i wanted to tok bout the cls tingy kn/?

asl sidetrek??

bullshit!hahaha!!

aniwaes..my head blank uh..i wan partial kn?hais

but then wait2 i tink.. i tink i partial next mondae uh..nk?

woooo cool!!

next week last week sia! sad! gna miss cls...hais

aniwaes i gt BIG plan for tis hols!!

loads of thigns i wan do!!

i wan money!

i wan go dance wif hils!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! reggae!!

cnt wait!!

i hope i'll be busy enuf to forget bout Ab..but then wen alone...

u guys noe wat im tokin abt...

see tok bout him again...wat is tis ppl??!!

omg!!

i shall have a new post jus bout him!!heheh

yes i shall

hahaahah

later uh...i dun feel like doin it now...

aniwaes..i read other people's blog, they all noe wat to tok abt hor...

i tok mostly bout Ab..boring kn...

ok people do tell me wat to tok abt in my blog..

tanx

chioassss!!!!

And AGAIN!!

2010-01-24T17:41:00.000-08:00

hey heysss!!!

i miss everyone!!

i miss nisa, hils, ice, rab, my current classmates..my sem 1 clsmates.. my sis(she's pregnant!! yay!!)

and AB!(i miss u alot! like Fucking Alot ok?)

Sooo..people have been saying.."Move on Shai, ure strong, im not worried bout u, cos i noe u'll be ok"

everyone telling me to move on..

i wan to move on if i know we will never be together.. i wana move on if i noe there will be someone else hu can love and give me everythng tt i nid..

the moment I saw his pm " I think I m in love haha"

i cried noe..cos i know im nt readi to move on.. not redi to see him, not redi to know he belong to someone else...

yyyyyy???

i even planned on wat to do for his bdae!!

i planned for something sweet!

then we officially stop sms-ing, toking or watever aug 14 onwards

then hw to go on wif my plans??

hais

sad hor...

maybe i jus cnt face the fact tt i have to let him go...

im stubborn, i admit..

if i wana cry bcos i miss u

if i wana cry bcos ure wif someone else..

thn be it. cos i know ill be ok

i jus nid time..

time to heal tis heart of mine..

I MISS U AB! I MISS U ALOT.. :(

my heart's crying out for u..

memories in 2009!!!

2009-12-31T07:42:00.000-08:00

hapi new yearrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!

r u guys readi for tis NEW YEAR??!!

hmm..if me la kn, im reli gna miss 2009..alot

if oni tis yr will stay

hahaha

alot of things happen hor!!!

esp me(being in n out of love)

i hav to move on

but its hard...i still love u ab

aniwae,sidetrek pulak...

so fast uh the year...

hmm..wat awaits me in 2010??

i wnder

haaha

hope its interesting n fun..

n ill be more hapi,there's gna be alot more laughter,more happier..

n everythng..ill be praying for happiness n success in life..

hope i cn move on or mayb find sumone else to like(if possible)..i duno

its ok...my heart is stronger than i tink..n i noe so...

im here to wish everyone..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!HOPE IT WILL BE AN INTERESTING YEAR AHEAD FOR EVERYONE!!!

to my dearest love,

i still love u..im praying everydae tt u'll come back..

but it'll be stupid if i take u bck,cos i noe i deserve better

im tryin my veri best to move on..i noe i cn do it...i jus nid more time..

i miss u..perhaps now ure celebrating the coming of 2010 wif ur frens or gf perhaps..

its ok..do watever u wan..as long as ure hapi my love..ill alwaes pray for ur safety and God will alwaes protect u everydae

I.D.A- Ida dan Ab

my baby's online!!

2009-12-21T09:05:00.000-08:00

okok

he's not my baby!

so yeah

ab's online!

im sad!

went out wif hils, n i told her i still hav feelings for him

n now his online

we stp tokin n like

omg!

i still love him!

i wan him bck cn?

pls plspls

i miss him siol!

omg!

i miss his voice

i miss his laughter

i miss hugging him as if his mine

even if the nxt time, ill hav feelings for someone

it jus wudnt be the same

WHY?

I CHNGED MY MSN NICK BECAUSE OF U!

i hate the name ida

but it still my name thou

omg!

till wen cn i get rid of tis feelings?

wen i tink abt it now,typing all of tif nw

i jus felt like crying

I FREAKING MISS U AB!

i even dreamt of u

come on!

omg!

i duno wat to do

n wen tis will end

i wana move on

but then i duwan to move on

tis feelings is ssssssssssssssssooooooooooo

MEREPEK!!

like pantat!

omg!

hais

memories...........................

he will still be in my heart

till the day i feel i cn move on n totally erase him frm my memory

if there memories tt i cud erase,it wud be u,AB!

u made me feel special,then nw i hate myself bcos of u

ITS ALL BCOS OF U,AB!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wan tt happiness again

i wana smile,get hyper bcos of u

be crazy

i was tt girl wen we were in love

i jus wan u to know

tt ive tried my hardest to frgt abt u

to stop tinkin of u

ive tried my best

its been freaking 6 mnths nw!!

I STILL LOVE U

N WILL ALWAES MISS U,AB

'ur sweetest syg'

list of bastards!!

2009-12-17T04:56:00.000-08:00

hahahah

so so so!!

if i cud possibly write the names of bastards in here!

haha

i wish...

but im nt tt heartless..n scred if those freaks might found out...

u see la..i wan do sumtin..trying to be mean..but then..

hais!!

aniwaes, i feel like i wan sumtin SO MUCH!

i cnt wait go dye my hair

haha

cnt wait for nxt weeks babes!!

jln2 n stuff

im watchng muveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

but duno wat muvee uh actuali

pathetic pe?

i LOVE everyone..!!

excepts those HATERS & BITCHES! hah

to be continued

does it matter??!!

2009-12-09T05:01:00.000-08:00

helo all!!!

its been sooo long rite???

i almost forgottn all bout my little cutie diary over here

hahah!!

haven been throwing any angers(lately)

hahaha

but now got!!!!!

hahahah, aniwaes

yestd, gt Singapore idol rite?

got watch not?? i did, for sure

u noe, i went tru all the trouble, goin everywer possible to find prepaid

sounds like bull shit..but tru

no la., actuali of cos its nt hard..i jus kip frgtting to buy, then wan buy last min

jus to vote for sezairi noe!!!

wth kn???!!

hahahah

so so so..

i reached cls in the mornin redi todae

i strtd tokin bout it

i was sad very very noe

tt tabby went out

i reli felt she deserve it....she has the whole package peeps...

i noe alot sae she dun deserve it..jus bcos they sae tabby arrogant\

ppl!!i dun care if she's arrogant!!!

i felt she deserve to be singapore idol bcos of her voice...

personality wise, jus tink..

if she win,good..she deserves it..

but after tt...if other ppl tink she's arrogant, then be it..

her career will end even faster rte.?

hahahaha

in the top 3, i felt she or sezairi deserve it

omg! slyvia, is super pathetic!!Like f**k!

hahahah

rmbr the week before, wen she sang 'i dun nid a man'?

picthng sa!!everywer!!

hahahaah

n still, ppl vote for her

singapore wans her to win rite

if she wins, its an embarrassment to spore..

hahaha

hu cares

aniwaes, bck to cls tingy...

one of my classmate, love slyvia n hates tabby

weras im the opp..

so we kinda hav a debate sumhw

mayb cos im too harsh

n i kip repeating 'slyvia's pathetic!'

she gt mad...guess wat

she put tis as her pm

' WTF??? perangai mcm oink oink... merepek sia.. nangis nangis....(n sumore which i cnt rmbr)'

its like WOAH!!

so not like her la

i mean before tis, she like a very swit girl, gd girl n blablabla

all those nice character n stuff

but nw like tis...like sum minah siol!!!

hahahhahah

but she did la tok to me abit..haha

but i lyn abit oni,,,not bothered..

like indirect hatred....

hypocrites!!

hahahhaha

yes, tats the word...

aniwaes, does it matter?????

huh?

ppl,does all tis matter???? it doesnt have any significance in my life

i jus sae n do wat i feel like doin or saying

or watever la

hahhahah

or mayb i was being too harsh???

hahahaha

nvm,its ok..i hope things get better...

im hvng flu...n fever....

shud i go skul tmr?

cn i not?

but gt ISF!omg hw??

but if i go skul, then go ISF, then go hme late..

then the nxt dae marketing UT

omg!!

hais

omg! i cnt for hols!!!

i dun feel like cumin skul tmr!

feel like sleeping..then nid chiong study marketing

hais

omgomgomg

hw hw hw?

hais

aniwaes...

tok to ya'll nxt time aites??

muackz!!

memories of the most precious moments

2009-11-05T21:35:00.000-08:00

you fall in love wif me for hu i am but u cnt accept me for hu i am?

ppl read tis n think, is tis logical?

omg!i kip tinkin of him lately!!!i cnt stop it!! its super ANNOYING!! bloody asshole!!
ogm!!! i reli miss all those moments, tokin to u otf all nite long till the early morning, saying 'mwah',kisses tru the phone, hais
like O-M-G!!!!!!!!!!
saying u love wen we tok on the phone, hearing u saying tt on my bdae
baby!hhahahahha omg
'shai stop it, he's not urs n dun tink ever will be'

ppl im reli sori
u know i created a blog wif the purpose of it as my diary. in terms of me expressing my feelings tt i jus cnt let it out..
i miss u la SYG!!

stil rmbr u calling me syg,huni,darl,sunshine
u even sang me a love song on the phn at the nite of my bdae and also wen we mit, u sang to me!! hais, i tink i love u uh

hw?
till wen'?
i move cn? bt i cnt
hw ni?
maybe not yet ke?

its cumin to 5 months..
since the day my heart was broken

i din noe and din expect ur love could jus fade away in a day.
maybe nw im still waiting for u to come bck

but let me tell u tis
once i moved on,i swear ill never let u bck it again

I still love u
my baby panda

its friday again!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-22T19:46:00.000-07:00

yellow yellow!!!!!!

ive been very the excited bout fashion drwing again...
the last time i drew all tis figure drawing stuff, erm, AEM
i guess uh!
hahahaha

aniwaes!!
i miss art!! painting all...

i wan money no babes!!!

for ipod touch n also AMORE dance packages!!!!!

hahahahahahahhah

I WAN DANCE AND I NID IPOD TOUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hw to get more money in such a short period of time???
hw uh???

i wan money!!
u noe once i turn 18, no more student package noe!!haiyo!!

donate me money if u wan or if ur money too much uh..later ur pocket kn too sempit redi..
give me uh!!
hahahahahah

maths officially sucks for me!

2009-10-19T23:47:00.000-07:00

like omg!!!
todae not a very gd dae in other words!
i oredi expect it to be a sucky dae..
mayb for the whole week...todae maths,then in my team,like omg
i felt tt i did contribute uh,then after 1st meeting im lost,then for the whole dae,my team feel lke as if i didn do anythng,ok,i duno uh,maybe im thinking too mch
then tmr,financial accntg..haiyoh...i duwan feel as if im not doing anythng
i dun like!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after tt marketing,i find marketing ok uh,the grp like ok..
but todae uh,haiyoh...then tmr,,,,i duno uh...
i wan go amore!!!!!

hais
i shud stop tinking bout all tis and tink of dance
cos dancing makes me happi
but then haf to think of money pulak
then i wan buy ipod touch
hw ni?

y uh?
i dun like le...
im oni 17
stil skulin
then al tis...haiyo!!!

i wan ran away for awhile cn?
omg!!!!!

Last Nite ^^

2009-10-19T18:47:00.000-07:00

yo babes!!
guess wat??!!
i dream of my baby(my syg-used to be) last nite

wat i dreamt of was :

i was wif a fren of mine(i duno hu)
was at a shopping mall
tokin2 then wan go next level(at the escalator)
suddenly gt sumone hold my hand to stop me
then i turned to look at the person..n it was him
he stared at me, he eyes were so watery as if he's gna cry(he's face so worried)
then i was so angry(i left but i was crying)
and at tt point, in my mind i said, "u left me before,why shud i stay for u now?"

hais,i duno uh,so in other words,in my dream he's coming bck to me
so jus nw, wen i was otw to skul(in the bus),i msg him,,
msg abit oni then stop,haiyo
not fun

I MISS U LA BABI!!!!
haiyoh!!!!!

SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND MEH??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

but if i wud ask myself tis qn "do i still love u?"

i duno wats the ans,haiyoh,tis feeling is super annoying!!!
haiyoh!!!!

come bck now,not after i oredi move on(but now not yet la)

tats y!!!!!!!!!!!!!

COME BCK TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TGIF!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-15T23:29:00.000-07:00

hey hey people!!!!
actuali,ngah tahan ni
want go pee!!
hahhahaah....

shud i go hme straight or buy terikayi set n the chicken??
hahaha
i duno..but i wan eat,,but then nak save duit!!hais

to be continued

RAGGAE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-14T17:47:00.000-07:00

fun sia!!!fun like anything!!!!
hahhahahah!!!!!!

cnt wait for next raggae lesson!!!!!!

It's a FRIDAY!!!!

2009-10-08T21:06:00.000-07:00

Hey Yo!!
hahah,i tot got meeting todae,but no..then tot since nisa asked me along for jln raye
i excited uh,then tk jadi(hais,god knows)
anyways, i duno wat to do after skul,im so bored
like wan cabot,but tak nk uh
hahahhahaha

wat to do uh babes??!!
feel like watchng muvee
wat to do uh?ouh man
hais
nisa nk lepak at my house?
ahahahahahha

lets wait n see wat happens after skul
hahaha
to be continued(hav i ever cntinue my post?)-aha

Missing Those Moments

2009-10-06T00:10:00.000-07:00

My Art Piece For O Level!!!!!!!!!!

i miss my art piece!!hahahahha i wana tke it hme cn??
pls MS ONG!!!
pls
hahahahahahah
i love it
i knw it i paint another canvas it wunt be the same as tt precious one (the picture above)
hahahahah
I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'll pray for the better everydae :)

Unexpected

2009-10-06T00:06:00.000-07:00

anyways,i tot my grp will be the worst
but i was so so so wrng
me n iainrick(i tink tts how to spell his name)ala nemind
so we came up wif the solution
duno wrng or right
but the faci like u noe,tot our method rite but the ans wrng
but its ok,
at least job's done and our method's rite!!
hahahah

i miss someone (ok bedek not 1 oni ALOT)
hahhahaha
i wish i could name those ppl
but its ok
i felt ive been left behind,not oni by tt babi
but others

its ok
everything's gna be orite!
I KNEW IT!

NTH'S DONE!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-05T19:08:00.000-07:00

hey babes(n dudes/dicks/assholes)watever!
pple,i dun understnd maths!
nid help here!reli lost baybeh.
n the other grp r reli hard working

my grp,hmm let see,dng own things,went for break,nth done
well, tts wat we've done so far(CONGRATULATIONS)

anyways,i nid a change in my life,a BIG one
VERY VERY VERY BIG
and i noe,in order to do tat,i nid to lose sumtin,maybe tis feelings tt i have in my heart
annoying one especially!
nid to get rid of it man!!!

im tryin so hard! u noe wat made things even worse, when i hav 1 problem, another prob will cum up
then another then another,
do u noe how annoying tt is?
anyways, if ure think im weak, im not,
im strong,rite nisa?hahahah
she knows tt!!
hahah

hear dis DICKY!(tokin bout tt babi)hah

i dun depend on u cos i will make it through on my own!!

anyway, cum back to maths,still nth's done...ill update it very soon!!
tata

I Still..

2009-10-05T17:11:00.000-07:00

hmm, hey there..im jus bored
reached cls early by 20 mins
anyways,i wan to tok abt 'sumtin' in particular
tat babi actuali
hahahah

i was heading hme,in bro's car la..we jln2 actuali..
then i was listening to my mp3,n guess wat the song "I STILL" BY BACKSTREET BOYS
tts the reason y this post title tt song uh
hahah

i was listening to tt song, then i saw his name on tis car...
n it was tis part on the song

"Now look at me
Instead of moving on,
I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
Yeah, I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (To last)"

hais,sad uh...then ystd before i go to slp.,,i tot of him..cos i saw he went online in the afternoon
but we did not chat at all
not even a 'hi'
like omg!!so upsetting rite??!!!
hahah but nemind uh
wat to do, tats my fate..so its ok,,
things happen for reason and its alwaes for the better..

class is oni half full - its 8.20 am
hahahah
wow im early!
hahaha
scred if late so went out of house at 6.30am
hahahha
my eyes pedih man
since in the bus jus now u know
hw ni?/
i put eye drop redi
but still pedih
shits!!!
hahahah

hu the faci uh todae
todae maths noe
plspls new classmate guide me through aites
i scred i lost in cls n i duno how to do todae's problem

im scred
then tmr financial accounting
omg ppl!!
wat is tis??!!
good gracious!!
padan muke shaidah nk sngt kan tis course
nk business kn??!!
amik kau!!
hahaha

wer's janice??!!!
i wan sit wif her!!

faci cum redi!
guy uh!
haiyo!

to be continued!!
hahah
tata

after clss!!

2009-10-05T00:35:00.000-07:00

woot woot!!
a relief to sae!!
my team,gt good and nice ppl
anyways
to be continued!!!!

in new cls!!

2009-10-04T17:25:00.000-07:00

im so nervous!!
im scred!
omg!
help me uh!

HURT

2009-09-25T06:48:00.000-07:00

i jus cnt seem to let it go. i tot i could,but its damn hard.
hais, am i still hoping? i duno. i duwan to. i wana move on. take tis feelings out and throw it away.

i wanna stop tinking bout u. stop missing u. everything!! u're stupid orite!!!
hais,nemind, im angry and hurt, feel like shouting then cry.
i wanna be strong,n prove to u that im better and i cn be hu i wana be.
YES U SUCK!! all u do is jus to hurt me. u dun appreciate love.

does love fade away tat easily???? does it??
i noe and very sure my love dun. dats y i cnt move on(yet)...u idiot!!
cn i jus slap u 3 times and kick ur ****??!!!!!!
bloody asshole!!!

eeee!!im sssoooooo angry!!
i hate u but i love u...do u know hw annoying tt is??

i'll pray i'll be strong and will fight tis (stupid) feelings
n ill prove u wrng babi!!
u'll regret it i know
for sure!!!
n if tt happens....i'll shout at u in public "IN UR FACE ASSHOLE!"

SORI PEOPLE,I JUS READ SUMTIN N IM FUCKING ANGRY!I DUNO WAT TO DO!
i'll be ok, i knw so
a bestfren of mine said to me 'im not so worried cos i know u'll be ok'
tanx darl, i cn do tis , i know it

i duno wat ive planned so far will work or not but ya,anything cn happen rite?

jus pray for me aites?
:)

tc peeps!!
love y'all!!

2009-09-25T06:45:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 19TH BDAE BIG BOY!!!!!
wish u all the best in life!!!!happiness alwaes!!

I MISS U, I LOVE U BABI!!!!

2009-09-15T04:37:00.000-07:00

hey hey
so long uh never post..
aniwaes,todae i suppose to mit ab
buke(break fast) together,then he cancel!!!
but nemind i trust him
his reason was tt he nid to go ica,make passport wif his mum
its ok i understnd..future mother inlaw(HAHAHAH)!!! i wish uh
he'll update me soon(by wed he said)
hopefuli we'll mit soon SYG hahah
hahahah
hais
i freaking miss him la bodoh

wen uh wan mit??
so much of wanting to meet baby!!
aniwaes, hais..i love u la

hope to mit u soon baby(or babi-i'll shall call him tt if im angry at him)hahahahah

love u love u love u
mwa!mwah!mwah!

2nd dae Ramadhan!

2009-08-23T06:35:00.000-07:00

yoyo!

its oni the 2nd dae n yet, such patience tester!
phew!
hmmmm, went bazaar n saw a woman hu wore the same top as i do. hahahah
she saw me first n she was like "eeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!*pointing at me"
i was u knw blur sotong...din knw wat she tokin bout
then i look at her top..
same as mine..boohoo!!
hais
my top so popular meh? i tink yes uh...bought at geylang ma!!hahahahahaha
cheapo! (its not cheap uh actuali)nomore geylang baju pls!!!
hahahahah...hmmmm

cant wait cant wait for UT to end!!!!
2 more beb!!!woooh!!!
after tt, strt planning on u knw(up's bdae)
hahahah
cant wait!!!i hope he'll get touched and appreciate it!
i miss him uh! felt like msgng him
but then duno uh
lets jus kip tis feeling to maself
hahah...maybe it will fade 1 dae, maybe ill find someone else to love..
god knows, time will tell

LOVE U GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mwahhhh!!!!!!!!!!

there's always a good and a bad.

2009-08-17T23:19:00.000-07:00

u knw, todae is the last dae. and frm the title, let me sae it again, there's always a good and a bad..
hmm,basically im tokin bout us being in a new cls next semester.
let strt wif the bad.
bad = gna miss w47n alot! especially the closer one to me!! and im gna be very shy n nervous on the first day.hais but wat to do...tats RP!
GOOD = some people in cls will no longer be part of my life.. will no longer see them (cos some jus leave me wif bad impressions, gt fckng attitude) hahahahah
i dun tink anione noe..
n i wunt let anione knw cos u knw y
erm,not gna tell u
hahahahahahh
its okla
im saying tis now cos im nt in the mood..its now oni....todae last dae btw, everythng will be gone soon
veryvery soon
hahahahaahhah
bloody people!!i cnt tahan looking at their face!!omg
n fasting month cuming!!!
luckyly during hols!!hahahahaha hha
nid more patience!!!remember that ida!!!

i nid my baby(my beloved i mean)!hais!

let see, todae hw many entries??omg!!hahahahah
it jus show hw i felt in cls(if u cn interpret)hahahahah

UT UT UT!!!!!
omg!!!
study baybeh!!!!hahahahahh

2009-08-17T23:12:00.000-07:00

tis pic was taken yest..cute rite??!!!!
omg!!i freaking miss her!!!!
she very cute la!!!
i love NURUL AIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ANNOYING!

2009-08-17T22:10:00.000-07:00

u knw hw annoyed i am todae??!!
omg!! watever ive said, people ignore like as if im totally wrong!!
they dun even care to wat ive said...no reply or watsoever!!!
annoying rite??!!!
for god sake!!!
hais!!
i miss my baby panda!!!!
omg!!!
but nevermind..its ok
im happy...veryvery!!
noone could ever imagine hw happy i was tt dae..
hahahhaahah
tanx for everythng baby(switch tat first 2 letters)
hahhaahhahaha

to be continued!

2009-08-17T20:10:00.001-07:00

hmmm...todae,last dae in sch...n pathetically, its maths..hais
sooooooo...kinda annoyed now..duno y...
reli hate tis feelings...

btw, tot wan to post bout wat happened on fri..
or wana express my feelings out..
but not nw i guess,cos nw i dun feel gd (as in tis annoying feeling)
hais
LIFE, wat can u sae bout it...
people are so surprising
hahahah
watever to it la eh...
LIFE'S GOOD, MOVE ON!

cant wait for tmr!!i mean after sch,not UT!!!
holidaes cumin!!!!!!yayayay!!!!!!!
ain darling!!!!i love u!!!!
she veri cute i swear!!!!

tis stupid ting gt prob uploading pic
ill upload soon aites
hehehe

tc,loves!!

2009-05-05T21:10:00.000-07:00

u knw, recently (Up) msgng me...i mean like now,everydae......well,tats a gd ting of cos...i like it..is it like out of boredom or wat...idk uh..i love it tis way...cos dulu,very2 close....then tak very close...kadng2 msg....tak selalu call..then nw...like tis uh....everydae msg...gd2
kip it up Ab..kk??

i reli duno wat to sae or do...am i hoping too much...i wana knw wat ab reli feel...wats in his heart..how he reli regard me..i duno eh...hw??
i din asked him once sumtin like "gt miss me"...he said sumtin like....u dun hav much impression on me for u to pop up in my mind"...sumtin like tat...i duno la..
tat was last time...now,i duno uh...
i wonder if i ask him again...will he sae the same ting??
why now he keep msgng??does he have feelings for me???like how i have for him??

nemind,ill tink it tru again

BAYU!!!!

2009-04-27T22:11:00.001-07:00

so done uploading pics...
cute kn bayu!!!!!!
hot i noe.....
hahahha....had fun uh...
it was on the 12th april,lagun sari,3rd level,2-5pm

monday blues...

2009-04-26T17:27:00.000-07:00

in class now...at 8.25am..reached early todae
hahahha...i like!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sooooo....now quite alot in class dy...n n n,1 ting i noticed some people r getting even closer to 1 another..
but i dun mind la...
gt "some people"hahahahah
i duno uh...y do i even care..tell me y
todae enterprise skills...watever
i miss NISA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hais....wah long time din tok to her otf..see her/lepak2 wif her
haiyo...start skul dy then we like tak close as last time...
boring nye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

btw,last fri...A**** at my corridoor..u call it corridor ke??
hahhahaha
he was staring at me sia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then he waited for lift,wen lift cum dy...he wanted to leave.then he waved at me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!omg!!!!
actuali i duno at me ke tak...
but to hu kan other than me...???he duno the rest pe....he duno me oso actuali...
or maybe he noticed tat im frm SOH..
maybe la...i duno..tak sure..hahahaha
then "some people" somehow spoil my mood le...tell me sae he gt gf dy...
tok bout tat girl all

to be continued....

saw him(A****)

2009-04-22T21:56:00.000-07:00

was a gd start today..saw him(A)in the morning..was otw to skul..
like OMG!!!!than while 2nd study period plus lunch..but i din go....he walk pass my cls!!!!!!!!!!!!!he look tru the transparent gls window....twice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!omg...cool kan...
after 5 days not seeing him....now than!!!!
he effing cute!!!!!n hot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!from sport skul le....
even aida tinks he's cute and hensem....hahahah......
oh man!!!!wan see him again!!!!!!

well now in cls...
1pm...dng ppt...actuali i felt like i did nth...cos i search for info wen they found it dy....wats the point??...jamie did ALOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!credits to her...
claps!!!love u jamie... :)
wah,i dun like the faci sei...sooo strict!!!!
ask lots of question wan le....haiyossssssssssssss....annoying!!

A****!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahahaha
okok...its jus a crush ppl..i dun even knw him...
my feelings's for AAAAABBBB...hahah(like real)
hais....up ni...y din layan me the same...i felt like tak diappreciate...
sori eh to whoever read my blog....its veri pathetic...i know i know......SORI!!.hahah

A****!i wan see u again!!!tok to me uh(as if will happen)*ding dong
hot la u..wooohhhhhh!!
walk pass my cls everday k??wen iim in the cls of cos...
i give u flying kiss....mwh2!!!

got no title(hahah)

2009-04-20T20:51:00.000-07:00

omg...so long,now than update..
haiz...
im bored,hungry!!!!
now still stay in class..nt doin anitin...
btw,im confused...there's tis guy(in rp)mcm bapok gitu..but wat if i like him uh.??
hw??i tink i was jealous wen i saw him with other girl..
i duno uh...how ni??
btw,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NISA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i haven buy her present ni..how??wat to buy??
i know she want baju...but i ngah badget uh nisa..
how??u ask for cheapcheap ye le tak??
hahahahah...jacket cn????
hahah....

im reli bored...omg,we gona do tis everydae for tis yr....
hais....AAAAAABBBBBBBBBBB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!call me again la like tat nite!!!!!
i miss u uh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sori uh..(mcm desperate pulak gitu)
hahahahahahah...ala,hu cares rite..my blog wat...i write anitin i wan uh
hahahahahahha

previous in life,
i use blog to vand(is tat how u spell it) my anger,tell my sad story..
no happiness at all...
i shud atrt using blog everydae since im using my lappy everyday...
haiz.... n n n i alwaes change my URL..
sori for the inconvience caused..
like wat ive said...HU CARES...

none did kan..hu wud wana read..btol tak??
actuali got more to write..
but nemind uh...
i continue next time..if remmber
hahahahah.....

ReSults CuMing Out!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-07T07:41:00.001-08:00

haiz...cuming out in 5 daes babe
how ni??
so fast!!!!tmr im gng np n sp open house..
wif huiqin n mayb jolene..
i scred la results...insyaALLAH bole masuk poly eh..
AMIN..
heheehhhe
i wan go poly!!!!!!!isy2...
seram sejuk sei now..
haiyo...scary merry..

NOTE: 5 more daes!

B.o.R.i.N.g!!!!!

2009-01-06T06:12:00.000-08:00

hmmm...
todae woke up late..11plus..
cos talked to Alwi(new fren) till 4 plus..
1st time getting to noe each other..
jus frens la..
hmm..he's fun..a joker.i laughed my ass of whole nite..
bt wen tokin to him..it made me miss Ab even more..!!!
how ni?
hais...shaidah shaidah..dream on eh...
its soooo impossible tat ill ever be wif him..
NNNNN..unluckyly he doesnt noe my blog..well most of frens too actuali..hah
oh man...results cuming out nxt wk..!!!!!!!!!
im damn scred!!!
isy..insyaALLAH i cn go poly..
hmmm..i miss Ab..
i wan to tok to him otf everynite if cn..
if he onli knew how much i miss him..
ala..i tink tis feeling will fade away soon too..
jus pls dun sae gdbye..

TO: ABDILLAH

I MISS U!!!
i wana tok to u again..
the next time we tok otf..
im gona tell u tat i miss u..
well,eventhough i noe u dun (YAKDUSH!!!)
jus kidin :)

labels: it happened for the first time,it happened for the secong time,third...bt i duwan it to happen for the forth time

I MISS U!

2008-12-31T08:44:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year!!!

cant believe time fly tat fast..

hmmm...im gona miss all my peeps..

isy...ala..

how??miss u all ar...

i love u guys!!!

thanks for being part of my life

each n everyone of u make a difference in my life..

i cudnt be more tankful to everyone...

especially to my close frens,buddies..ppl hu i treasure most in my life...

buddy,i reli miss u...i miss u more than ani1 else in tis world..

i wish u noe how im feeling now..

ive nvr been so close to a fren like i was to u before..

i wish u every happiness n success in ur life ahead..

love u!!my bestfren...

i'll rembr u forever...

TrEaSure Them wen They're still Here...

2008-07-26T07:31:00.000-07:00

sometimes it hurts to not be wif the person you feel comfortable wif...
i lost 2 people tat i love and treasure so much in my life...
i want to be loved and cared for...
somepeople may say "i can survive alone" ....well,i duno if i could say tat...
in my life,there r some people i wana kip n bring them wif me everywer i go...
my family...my frens....i dun wish my last year in tis sch to end tis way...
i wish i could everything in my heart....

i just wan all of you to know...
i treasure each n everyone of you...
im sorry for wat i've did...if i ever hurt anyone's feelings...
wat i wan is someone close to me...someone tat i can share my life wif...
my tears..my joy...someone who can listen to me...
it did hurt me wen someone said.."we alwaes haf to tolerate ur behaviour"...
am i alwaes bad???people make mistakes...i do..n i admit im wrong...im sorry..
im to b blame...im at fault...but how about you???...you did nothing wrong???
haiz..its ok...
i can take all tis,,evrything wil b kept in my heart...